Ever since that chat I had with him where he got mad at me for being unreasonable himself, I haven¡¯t thought much of him. I don¡¯t know. I feel relieved in a way because I got his attention and maybe that¡¯s all I wanted. I still think about him. But definitely not that much anymore. Although I do tell people that I still miss him. Because I do. Just not as strong as previously. I¡¯m still waiting for me to send me the first text so I can respond. Yet I doubt that¡¯s gonna happen. I¡¯m really out here waiting for him to cave in because he was the one who told me to not talk to him. Sure, I won¡¯t. Whatever. Talking to you or about you only pains me.

I fixed up our discord¡¯s emojis and saw him using them today. I don¡¯t wanna be that bitch to think that he¡¯s thinking of me. But I am that bitch. He used it 3 times today, for all the new emojis I added. My bet is that he is too pussy to send that first message. Then again, why tell me that only you can hit me up when you don¡¯t have the balls to admit that you miss me?

I have other wonderful things to look forward to now, whether or not you want to hit me up. I have a lot of things planned for December. Campfire with friends, Amber concert, possibly Ailee and a trip outta the country. What more can I ask for? I was gonna go Seattle for a visit to my friends there for Christmas. I guess god didn¡¯t want me to go, and my parents are going back to China again. If god says it¡¯s not the move, then it certainly is not. I believe in him.