Wow imagine someone gorgeous coming home to you wasted and reeks of cigarettes and you¡¯re really glad to see that they¡¯re safe home at the very least.
I thought about that one time Seng came by all drunk and smells like cigarette and I don¡¯t know.. I just smile to myself. I know... it¡¯s not exactly romantic or what not and it¡¯s probably gross to some people cuz they smell bad but something about that makes me feel nice on the inside.

I think about him sometimes. And the times we shared. Wow it was crazy how all those days that I was there... he was there for all of it. It¡¯s amazing.. he doing that for me. Wow.

It¡¯s been 42 days since he¡¯s been gone. A month went by already... Jesus that¡¯s really crazy. And I¡¯m not a stalker or anything okay. I just checked steam today and it says last login was 42 days ago okay I¡¯m not counting the days like some crazy lady.
The more I think about him. The more I think about us. I don¡¯t know we are a good fit for each other honestly. I think I highkey annoy him LOL. I do admit I¡¯m pretty annoying tho. I¡¯m also not as mature as him on so many levels. I think we were a fling. Temporary feelings towards one another. Dissipated with time. I think we are better as friends than something more. Yea.. he was right. My feelings towards him did change. But did his? I don¡¯t know. He¡¯s clear on his feelings. And I¡¯ve made my decision too. I guess we will see when we meet again.

Man... why do I always go to concerts when I¡¯m feeling like shit. Ugh. I¡¯m really debating whether if I wanna go tbh... If I go, I¡¯m legit pity party in there. On the other hand... how can miss cupcakKe tho... AHHHH I DONT KNOW